So....I've been really thinking about what my vision is for this blog. Do I want it to be all about mommy-ing? Do I want to post DIY projects galore? Do I want to talk about recipes...and if I do, healthy or tasty (because let's be real - they don't always go together)? Do I want to talk about my family, my experiences, my relationship with the Lord, what I like, what I don't?
And then I start to get overwhelmed and nervous. Why would anyone want to read what I have to say on any of these topics? I am NO expert. I DON'T have all the answers...not even by a long stretch of the imagination. I am totally intimidated by other blogs, other crafty people, anything really that seems better than me. I am fearful of failure and not living up to expectations (mostly expectations put on myself).
But then I started thinking today...GET OVER YOURSELF! Why do I even want to write a blog? Because I enjoy writing, keeping track of what's going on in our lives, and maybe even sharing some ideas with others. But, if no one ever reads it....that's ok with me! I want to write this blog for me and maybe my daughter to look back on one day at our memories. I want to share bits and pieces of my life just a little at a time.
So then I started thinking, "Ok, what now?". What direction am I taking this in? Did that really give me any answers? Well, no...but I appreciate anyone who is sticking with me as I figure it out. I decided that the thing I value most in life is relationships, and in order for me to have a relationship with someone I must value their HONESTY. That's SO hard for us...to be honest and vulnerable with people, especially people who seem intimidating or who have it "all together".
Honesty is scary.
Honesty is risky.
Honesty is messy.
But.....honesty is real, attractive and beautiful too. It bonds us together. It releases something within us that's screaming to get out. That's what I want for this blog....a real, messy, beautiful honesty. That means I might talk about cute DIYs, fun family activities, yummy recipes, and the like....OR I might talk about my weight loss journey (YIKES...that's a touchy one), scary or unattractive mommy/wife moments, regrets, painful realizations, losses.
I think it also means that I don't really know from day to day what direction I'm going to take this blog in. I'm going to try to go with the flow. Let's just see where this journey takes us. Ultimately...my goal is to document my family's and my life...our loves and our experiences...and use that honesty to make some friends out of my readers. I love nothing more than making new relationships and growing deeper with people, but that means I must be willing to go there...get dirty...be real and put myself out there.
So this is me....raw, unorganized and scatter-brained, a continual work in progress. Thanks for reading and being interested. I truly hope to learn more about your honest selves someday too.
Katie