Madeline,
I can hardly believe I'm saying this, but you are a year old now. You have reached full on toddler-dom. We made it!
There were days and nights when it seemed like 1 year was so far away, like you would remain a tiny, helpless baby forever. So much of those times were simply blissful. I wanted to soak it up, breathe you in, for as long as time would allow. Each night before putting you to bed I wrestle with myself....I know it's time to lay you in your crib, but I want to rock you just a little while longer.
Now there were times when it was hard too....like sleeping on the couch with you for the first few months, or walking you around the entire house all day long to keep you from crying....
but even then, I always knew what a gift you were to us.
Now you are so happy and full of life and energy. You are crawling, talking (a few sweet words), playing and growing. I have to admit that all of these milestones are so exciting, but somewhat bittersweet. I never thought I'd be, and never wanted to be, one of those moms who had a hard time letting their kids grow up. But it turns out that it's just inevitable I think. I'm so proud of you and am amazed at how God has perfectly created you to be you, and that's showing through more every day. But....and I NEVER thought I'd say this, EVER....there are times that I long for the hours of bouncing you around the house. I miss sleeping with you right next to me, so small and unsure of the world. Those have become treasured memories that I will store up the rest of my life.
Despite my mommy nostalgia, you are growing and learning. Each day is full of new adventures and excitement. I loved you the moment I met you, but I have fallen more in love with you each day for the past 365 days. It blows me away to think about the possibility of loving you even more with the years to come. I want you to know that through this past year with you we have been blessed beyond expectation. Our family is a better family with you in it. We couldn't imagine a life without our precious Madeline in it. You've made us laugh and cry, and you've taught us so much about love. I can't wait to see what the next year has in store for you. I love looking at the world through your eyes, everything so new and full of possibilities. Thank you for that gift. Thank you for being such a beautiful part of our family. I love you more than words can say.
Mommy
